I miss my permed hair

Something random...while browsing around. Not as if I got nothing to do thou', work's piling up but I just aren't hyped enough to complete them.

I miss my long, permed hair....the length (behind) was almost reaching my butt when I decided to chop it to shoulder length. Those curls looked very soft and natural by the time I took the above picture and I'm dying to have it back now...

The hi-lights I've got looked seemingly gold but it was actually ash green if you were to see it upclosed.

Oh well, my hair's entirely black now. I've gotten my curling rod from the salon I frequent. So I'm gonna play with it till my hair's long enough for a decent perm.

Notes to ladies out there: PLEASE make sure your hair is long enough before you make your mind to perm it. Seen so many unsuccessful cases..

Edison Chen and Gillian Chung sex scandal~

Fully, 100% omfg exposed. Along with Bobo Chan's. (Whoever she is. Name reminds me of Bobo Chacha)

Exposed as in, XXX rated, uncensored porn kinda exposed.

Say "Hi" to their brother and sisterhood kinda exposed.

Damn jialat. Saw it this morning and I almost fainted. Gillian's face - classic.

DAMNNNNN classic.

I shall do them some justice by not disclosing the link here. Thou' I kinda C&P to a handful of peeps in msn to take a look... =_="' All I can say is, I'm disappointed with Edison's siz...nvm.

*ahem*

I'm sure my beloved Daniel Wu won't do that, will he? Nonono, he is one hella smart boy.

Prolly its not that smal.... *cough cough* No lah, I never did really observe the pics. Was like, closed the window immediatly after I saw the rated x image. Else wait boss thought I'm surfing porn website.

So, I shall be nice. Go find out the link yourself. (Shucks, I dunno how to tag this entry. Under "funny"? Yes? No?? Nah, leave it)

Imitation is the highest form of flattery. Simple joke can be the start of all disasters

Indeed, huh?

I bet it doesn't feel that good seeing people mimicking the living hell outta you.

Trust me, I am boiling a good 101 degree celsius over here. Seeing what I saw today was a total shock I think I will die of heart attack. Thus this will be my last blog entry.

I DO wish this could be the last entry. The feeling of being literally "cloned" feels the worst out of worst. Seriously, who in the hell likes to be freaking cloned??? Ya, do it for the purpose of medical, keepsake, whatever. Those were at least magnimous enough for me to forsake whatever resentful feeling I had for the art of cloning.

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But who in the hell likes to see another of his own? 100% identical to himself? I mean, please lah, even identical twins has their difference.

Right, my case is not as bad as 100% identical, but was "cloned" enough for a normal 9 to 5 OL to take it. Imagine this, here you have something new, you shared it with people. There you see the person holding the exact same thing as you, proclaiming to be her originality. Wah lao, and its not as if this is the first time.

Happened years back, and now I'm seeing history repeating itself. UGH! Super turn off lah. What's next? Plant a spy cam on me and see how my room looks like so you can have the same layout? It can't be. IT WILL NEVER BE CUZ' MY HOUSE/ROOM/KITCHEN/TOILET/STOREROOM/HALL IS WAY NICER.

Spare my originality and have your OWN piece of shit mind for creativity, for mine is nothing great to be owned.

I can feel the agonies of those created famous labels yet being replicated.

I rest my case lah.

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Alright, as if my Monday morning wasn't happening enough. Another pool of flame increased my temperature supernova I'm literally steaming myself off. I is can be the firetorch (or dunno what's his name lah) from Fantastic 4.

Its the same symptoms when I almost wanted to kill my mum's first husband, the time when I wanted to kill a schoolmate of mine and was halted by 2 other girls whom claim I was uncontrollable. Shivering hands, head spinning, vains thump-thumping, and of course, BP increase to 5000 times per second. No, I'm am not trying to show off or anything, that I'm a great sam-seng (hooligan). I usually go to a corner and cry my arse off.

Cuz' violence is not the way to end things. For all I know, I've never like quarrels nor violence. All I wanted was just to appease everyone.

And yet things turned out this way. A juvenile joke emerged to be a huge disaster. Look, my intention of everything was NOTHING even close to hostility. I wasn't even pissed off with last night's joke. The only thing that crossed my mine was "alamak, no eyes to see" and off I go, with a seemingly frustrating sentence threatening them, hopefully the meeking and teasing would stop. Piang... LAST NIGHT'S FINAL SENTENCE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AN EVIL-DOING OF MINE TO SCARE U PEOPLE HAO BU HAO~

P.S.: ASK THE PERSON WHOM I SPOKE TO OVER THE PHONE THIS MORNING, I WASN'T THE LEAST FUMED AT LAST NIGHT'S.

Crude joke be it I made to others or vice versa was just to have fun. However, a meer sentence a friend said made me feel utterly upset. As if I was "cheap" enough to game along. He wouldn't have mean "cheap", that I assure everyone. And chances are that I misinterpret things. Hopefully. But that particular sentence "I did not call her wife" came hostile enough to gotten me thinking if I should stop the instigation from the rest? Which means, no fun. Ain't it? Its not a matter of who's fault is it nor I want any justice to be done, I'm voicing out so that you all know how am I feeling now... I really thank the person who invented blog sia. Thou your info gets read by people all over the world, but it really is a good way of venting your bloody anger balls.

I shall not vulgarised myself nor this blog of mine cuz' I promised people. Thou I is want to t*d, c*b, k*n so badly. LOL. Kidding.

My point is, things happen, don't push the fault to the single person. Solve it together, like a team. Yes, I was upset, but people just can't seemed to deal with me being upset, and in turn, caused more anguish by saying things which I deemed, was the wrong words (incidentally, I'm sure). This I'm still of sound mind to judge. I love you peeps alot still. And I know I say wrong things too. But do correct me before things get outta hand.

Some might think I'm kicking a huge fuss over trival matters. But hey, I'm the one who is going through this right now, so cut your crap about how whiny I am. My EQ is low (but improving), so? That's me. I've got high IQ and AQ for what you know.

A clown entertains, but people asks things like why aren't the clown making a fool outta themselves when they aren't.

Are they supposed to be entertaining 24/7?

A clown makes people laugh, but people starts shooting the clown when the atmosphere turns awful.

Can the clown NOT have any emotions? Can the clown not be angry? Can the clown not be a clown for a sec?

I go smoke. You tell me.

Sweat Saturday~

Yes, I'm blading. Yup, there's nothing wrong with your eyes. I was blading. My first time blading. And Jeanie's too.

My first time seeing her perspire so much.

Her first time "earning" her dessert. Kudos (to me)!

Kym's first time meeting the farm, and all are cordial~!

Naima's face very...

Very amateur me thought I was going to die while I was on top of the rollies. Many times I almost fall myself to death. Leave the horrible screamings and yellings aside... *embarrassed*

WHO SAY IT IS EASIER TO LEARN BLADING IF YOU HAVE ICE-SKATED BEFORE???! BAH! Totally wrong! The technique is totally different from those of ice-skate.

Accompanied by cycling in the evening which we laughed alot, ate alot, had plenty of fun. Erm, correction, the guys cycled, the girls R&R, kenna tumpang only... =_="'

I'm totally un-ashamed of that. Bahahaha.

Ok, it was fun all and all. I think I'm suffering from post blading anxiety. I wanted to blade so much today!!!!

*Looks forward to the next blading and tumpang outing*

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Something random yet funny...

If 肥猫 had a past life, he would prolly looked like...

this.

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Very cute righttttt~~? Damn fat lor this cat. Am not a very neko person, but this fat, lazy ball of fluff I spotted from my kitchen was way too irresistable for me not to snap a picture of.

P.S: Neko, don't sue me for intruding into your privacy k? You're just too cute.
P.P.S: My camera is damn good lah, shooting it from the 5th floor and still it looked so clear.

*Looks at Canon ixxy*

Dear Ixxy,

You know ah, I was reprimanded for forgetting to bring you out yesterday. So we had only one pathetic picture taken (w/o J cuz' he's the one taking the pic). Our 2mpx handphone camera sucks big time we can't nor are willing to take too many pictures.

Poor Ixxy, you don't belong to me solely anymore...*weeps* You belong to the group whom many will take you away from me and start cam-whoring themselves. And I'll retrieve you back only to find many unknow pictures not taken by me. LOL.

Getaway seems dim....NOT!

Mwa ha ha ha ha!

We managed to make do with 500 odd. Pricey still, I know. But its alot better than the ones we got yesterday. Plus, I needa good good massage therapy lah!

Grand right?! Think I'm going to get a massage everyday if its cheap. But I reckon it won't be lor. WeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEeeeEEEee~ we're gonna stay here:

http://www.pavilionhotels.com/queensbay/destination.php?lang=en

Which made me anticipates the Taiwan trip in Sept / Oct. But its like....not even February yet.

Oh, speaking of February, CNY is creeping in without us noticing, ain't it? And thus, its the dreadful spring cleaning time of the year again. (Man, from Krabi can link back to CNY. Jinxed is definitely good at mind mapping)

*Calls out to all the Rats*

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Please remember to "An Tai Shui" okaaay~! This year we ranked top in "Fan Tai Shui". Heard from dad he, the horse, ranked 2nd.

(Not fair leh, this is our year and we "fan tai shui" the most...)

I shall nua at home on Chu 1!

I shall see the traffic-light sisters on Chu 2!

The Farm coming to my place for steamboat on Chu 3!

The Farm migrating to J's place for steamboat (also?) on Chu 4!

I'll be taking leave and grieve ah ma's death anniversary at Bishan on Chu 5!

Getaway seems dim....

$700 BUCKS FOR A STUPID KRABI TRIP?

And how long is it for? 1 week?

N-O! Its only a fucking 3D2N.

$700(plus plus plus, to be precise) for this? 700 freaking hard earned bling bling dollars for a 3D2N Krabi getaway??

Tell me you are so kidding me.

*Gets hysterical*
*Grabs hair so hard its balding*

And guess what, my heart sank when I saw Princess Lobang's itinerary to HK. My beach getaway was planned like, last year. And her's was...erm..when? I think later then mine. And its processing smoothly already! SOBS!

UGH!!!!

Was darn sian last night, knowing we couldn't book the tix just as yet cuz' it seemed way too potong-ed. Had to find another alternative - Fast.

Formula 1 FAST.

Furthermore, my "alert-amber" is here. And of all times, my lil' pink tablets had to go missing last night. Grrrreat.

Wonders if the person who invented Pre Menstrual Syndrome, created Post Menstrual Syndrome.

I think the girls can totally feel me. When the cramp attacks, it gets really mutherfuckinghorribly painful. Like someone pulling your small intestines like a I dunno, rubber band?

Well, fortunately for some, the entire cramp thing doesn't bother them. Like mine few years back. BUT AH! This cramp thingy has been getting on to me this couple of years lah!

I get to crouch like a tiger (hmmm, sounds like a movie, eh? LOL. No I'm not a hidden dragon) cuz' standing straight makes it worst. And I'll have to walk like an ah-por... Aiya, you all know what I'm talking about right?

Then I'll start to break cold sweat.

My limbs will turn cold. They'll start to tremble so badly its like I'm suffering from some parkinson diesease.

*Opens office self-made first aid box*

Good, I've got 2 left. Can pull me through for 2 days shall the pain strikes.

• I'm so going to buy 10 dozens and put it everywhere. EVERYWHERE. So it doesn't go missing when I'm desperate for our pink friend.

Xiao Pang text to say we still have hope for Krabi. She's gonna source for another agency. Fuck, why can't travel agencies open like 9am in the morning? Why must wait till so late? Why!!!!!!! Its like so near yet so far....hiccups everywhere. Nothing had been smooth lately. Grrrrr.

Okie, at least someone made me realistically happy this morning. Makes me guilty saying that fella is stingy when he's like the shhhweeetest. Bahahaha. I hope he doesn't sees this...

Reminds me of a friend who bought me panadol, put on my desk, left quietly cuz' he feared he'd disturb me. Then sms-ed me remind me to take the pills.

Sweet, ain't he?

Reminds me of James who rode me everywhere, anywhere I wanna go. Whom will bring an extra jacket if we are out at night, even thou' he has reminded me to bring mine. Whom changed his pillion's helmet when I complained it stinks. LOL. James, my biatch. ;)))))

Unlike some ungentlemenly fugly asshole who tries who act cool infront of people, creates conflicts behind people, so rude he treats his accquaintant transparent while the party is talking to him. Smart, so what? Big deal. I bet he doesn't know social ettiquette and of course, manners. Tsk tsk tsk, pathetic piece of god's creation that even if he's dumped to fill land, the land will rot.

Then again, thanks to the sucker, I've realised my EQ has improved. And thanks to me, the sucker has approx. 2cm column space of publicity.

*smiles ever so sweetly and looks at the bag of famous amos cookies with greediness*

Cookies, anyone? ^_________^

What can Jinxed do if she wants to change her career path?

If I'm ever so done with my career as a marketer...

What can I do...?

*wonders*






















I think,

I can...

be an Event Co-ordinator.

(or iszit The Farm co-ordinator?)

*Wink winks at the farm members*

LOLL.

Ehhh, Kym belongs to the traffic-light sisters leh. How ah? Can we like blend the gang and form a "TheTrafficLightFarm" ah?


Or "TheFarmLight"?

"TheFarmwithTrafficLight"?

Ok, nvm.

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==>Yes Xiao Pang, I is so can't wait for our Kerrr-rah-bee trip! Booking the tix alone is enough to perk me for the entire today. And many many gossips lata during dinner ya~ your treat. Dunnnncare. Pitz-zaaaah~~~Lalalallalalalla. Nah, I dun want pizza alrdy. Something else later. Shall see how.

P.S. Getcha fat, tempura fingers to work on the shoutbox fast larrrrrr. Hmpf!

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Its raining over here. Wonder if you all carried your brolly when you are out for your lunch.

Hug&Misses.

Cheers to the 80's (babies)

A re-cap for those borned in the 80's.

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Remember those days when we were kids? Our favourite pastime? And the drama/cartoon that was broadcasted in the former "SBC" which was changed to "TCS" and, now named MediaCorp?

Those days happened years back, but it seems vivid to me as if it took place just yesterday. Back then, there were only couple of channels. Channel 5, Channel 8 and TV2, which belonged to the malaysia media. Subsequently, the "prime" and "premier"Channel or what (I seriously can't remember) came out. That shows pretty handful of cartoons other then Channel 5. Of course, there were no such thing call Cablevision or what the younger generation deemed as SCV.

The cartoons:

Every weekend, there's Captain Planet - The cartoon that portrays the value for eco-friendliness. The episodes would feature villians that tried to do evil deeds which pollutes the earth. Captain Planet and his chosen planeteers would gather together and destroy the whosoever villian. Cool, huh. Least it teaches the kids positive values. Unlike nowadays, too much violence. Somehow, they lacked the essence of cartoon. You know you know? I know you know.

"Captain planet, he's our hero. Gonna get pollution down to zero..."

Hah! Memories for the lyrics. First 2 sentences only thou'... ;P

(Wah piang, this is so so so retro liao lor~LOL)

Oh, not forgetting Carebears and little ponies. Girls go gaga over them.

The scent of freshly cut grass remains clear. I was in my elementary school, with my huge bag, and would hop my way back happily. Cuz' I know I'll have my daily serving of "tao huay" bought from Granny. Not forgetting the afternoon nap which I loved most. Till this very moment. I'll feel sleepy whenever the colck strikes 3pm everysinglemutherfuckingday. Habit cultivated since kindergarten. Imagine how tough it is for me to pull through the period when I'm working. All those sleepyness, so overwhelming that I'd desperately find a corner to sleep. *Chuckles*

All those flashbacks. When we were kids. For what we cared was the fear of not handing up our homework on time, fear for showing our report book to our parents for their signatures, fear for our good/best friend will not befriend us. What's more? Those innocent fears of ours seemed nothing but wonderful, sweet memories now. Aren't they?

On the later part of my elementary school, when I was about 11 or 12, cartoons like Sailormoon, 小甜甜, 忍者乱太郎 and many more accompanied my childhood days. These cartoons would be shown mostly on Saturday. Starting from 11am all the way till 1 or 2pm, afterwhich, I'll be off for my nap, follow by my late lunch. Yup, that's how I was brought up.

小甜甜, the awfully sad cartoon which I think Shakespears would have liked if he's still alive.

The girls of my time envied her actually. Cuz' it seems like 小甜甜 was saved by many prince charmings whenever she's in trouble. Awww *daydreams*

Alright, back to reality, Jinxed.

Another of my favourite. I'll go crying if I'd missed any of the episodes.

People who knows me will definitely know that I'm a huge fan of sailor moon for sure. I even made profit trading selling those cards. *glee*

Dad even bought me their figurines! Daddy is the best lah. And those small little accessories - Uncountable.

Hee hee. I know this sound so juvenile. But...but...but...I really really adore them mah. Of course, I've grown outta it. Though I'll still go search their images once in a blue moon. Look how nice this picture is!

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Trends back then was hideous, now that I think of it.

Ok, I'm gonna test you a lil' here...

Remember the bubble socks? So popular they even have a retail shop called "The Socks house" selling mostly bubble socks. And its frigging ex. Retailing about $10 a pair? No. Maybe more.

Here's how it looked like:

*drumrolls*

Voila~! Managed to refresh abit of your horrifying school days memories?

Such combination was a megafad back then. (at least for my time) Other than our usual school shoes (we wear such socks to school FYI, plenty of ewl-ness eh?). The "doll shoes" were what they'll matched with bubble socks. What's the real term for such shoes anyway? Anyone tell me? It's definitely not Mary-Jane.

Another megafad. PLATFORMS!!! The ultimate star saviour of many shorties. Including me. *ahem* I've grown taller. Standing at 160cm ain't too short, am I? Articles would be featuring how dangerous girls were to wear the 3-inches platform running along the streets. Sprained ankles were the most commonly doctored that period I reckoned...

Taaa-daaah! The Spice Girls. How can I not include them, right? They are like our teenage icons. There's like different spice girl catered for different likings. The teens luuuurved them. Dunchu? Baby Spice aka Emma Bunton was the key trend-setter during our secondary school days. Look at what she's wearing and you'll know.

My fave was Melanie C. Who was yours?

*Shivers with irks* They were soooo much better back then.

Was browsing some songs was thinking of sharing a few with you guys. To let you have abit more understanding of what Jinxed is like. Whilst all of you think I'm a all-so-cheena-pop lover, hey, I do listen to english songs. No particular interest nor dislikes. But oldies and ballades catches my attention most.

Then again, I think I do have dislikes. Can't seem to appreciate the art of rapping. It's cool, but not my cuppa teh lah.

Here it goes...

WAIT. Really, do listen to the songs. If you are at work and can't listen to em, then my advice to you is - don't bother to continue. Else, drop by some other time when you can enjoy these musics. ^-^

Turn up the volume, enjoy...

Dance with my father again

This has gotta be sweetest, sad song I've ever come across. Especially when I'm so close to daddy. Dedicated to all the daddy's girl. Be proud to be one.

Luther Vandross had one of the most angelic voice that god has created. Like the singer so much I went did a brief research.

Jinx's deepest tributes to:

Luther Ronzoni Vandross, Jr.
Born: April 20th 1951 Manhattan, New York City, New York, United States
Died: July 1st 2005 (Age: 54), Edison, New Jersey, United States
Genre: R&B, soul, quiet storm, soft rock
Years active: 1968–2005
Label(s): Cotillion, Epic, Virgin, J, Legacy
Website: http://www.luthervandross.com/

(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Luther_Vandross)

Endless love

Nobody's home

Wild world

Someday

Friggin' lurve this song. It actually calms me down.

There goes my baby

Love, Me

All Good Things (come to an end)

Mum never fails to drive me to the wall. Boils up to my neck.

If there's anything she's good at, then it has got to be driving her kids mad.

Her 2 sons left her. Smart. Who wouldn't? Given her behaviour every month and year end with probings of monetary issues. Only ME. ME, the STUPID one who chosed to take care of her, if its not for dad.

Frankly, I'm not ashamed to wash my dirty linens in public. I'm pissed. People who knows me long enough knows that I have a uber materialistic mum in the gallaxy.

None of the love she gave is enough to diminish the thought of hating her.

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(Mum: comes into my room and makes herself comfortable on my bed, something which she never does. Other than trying to dig some gold outta her daughter.)

(Me: Rolls eyes. Sensed trouble. "We are so in for a quarrel, mummy dearest">> I knew that even before she opens her mouth. Action speaks. Like how a cat raises it's tail when it's preparing to attack.)

She: 你们的公司没有bonus的meh?

(Ya, like I'm stupid enough to tell you anything at all)

Me: 不是每一个公司都有的。

She: 这么奇怪的 (trying to fish things out from her -i-outwit-you-so-much, mum- daughter)

She: 那么AWS应该有的嘛。

She: 很好笑hor。

Me: 你不相信可以去问别人。

She: 没有。。。我只是问问而已。

(Yeah, right.)

Me: *Quiet*

She: *Pushes me to my brim again* Then increment leh? 有没有？

Me: *Nods*

She: *Excited* 加多少？

Me: 薪水的东西，不要问我，我不爱回答。。。

She: 连家人都不可以讲meh？做摩， 怕我拿你的钱啊?

(Ok, I seriously wanna agree with you and say even nastier words. But I still love you as a mum. So, period)

Me: 我一路来都是这样的。

She: *Finally gets into the main topic* 如果我不做工，和我的同事去中国， 你 sponsor 我要吗？

(Uh-huh! See, the cat is finally out of the bag. Boy that took long, mummy dearest)

Me: *Immediately shook my head*

She: 需要酱快摇头的meh？

(Ahberden...)

Me: 要多少？$100？ $200？

She: 你给我的感觉你很绝情。。。

(That's it. You crossed my line, woman)

And the quarrel starts.....which I don't have the strength to elaborate.

(1) She NEVER understands how much I've done for the family.

(2) She WILL NEVER understand how I'm carrying the burden like a man does.

(3) She NEVER REALISED why her sons left her, till date.

(4) She has NEVER consider I'm saving up for my studies.

(5) She has NEVER knew I cared about the family so much I get into depression.

(6) She DIDN'T know I got myself so many policies just in case if anything were to happen to me, their future has been taken care off.

(7) She WILL NEVER understand I love them so much it pains myself.

It's always the kinda bitter sweet, confused feeling towards my mum. Since young. Perhaps it was good I had the rebellious genes in me. Else I'd have been following her orders. From hair cuts all the way to my dressing, then my future. She seemed to have this habit of comparing me with my cousins. Followed some of her advice, goofed my life. Thank god I rebelled, or I'll bear many regrets till the day I die.

Thanks mum...that was just what I needed to worsen my condition. And I'm so happy about it.

Thanks.

Signed,

Your beloved, perplexed daughter

Jinxed is on the road of recovery along with Gucci and Friends

I know how scary it looked for my previous post. Depressed and all. But no doubts about that, I was feeling ultimately down the past 2 days, and desperately trying to tune myself to the "positive" channel.

Seriously, this entire "depression" thingy sucks. It affects my health too. One moment I'll binge, another moment I'll feel like puking. Not to mention the amount of cramps I've gotten even thou' my menses has yet come. No, I'm not pregnant. Definitely. Uh-uh.

Didn't occur to me how awful it felt when I had depression previously. All I knew was pills and pills that made me sleep and sleep.

Solution was to keep myself away from everyone. M.I.A would seemed to be an ideal describtion.

Away from any possible agitation, to keep myself calm.

Away from anything, that upsets me.

Along with many friends (and my gucci ^-^) whom didn't fail to stay by my side, which I was deeply grateful.

(Big, BIGGG hug to all of you)

"With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you, won't you say you love me too?" - Barney -

You love me, don't you? Yeaaaa, I know you do.

So, my remedy for insomnia swapped from sleeping pills to red wine. Which I reckoned it'll be zillion time better than what I'm getting down my throat now. Unless the pills are strong like my previous ones, else I wouldn't even think of touching it. Anyway, red wine was the one which helped me cure my sleeplessness. Which in turn, improved my depression.

Equation I've derived:

Insomnia > depression (or vice versa) > red wine (one small cupful per night, pls) + exercise + not cooping yourself up + do not haste into things + ideal amount of rest&relax + friends = road of recovery

I'm still not getting my normal self back, but it did improve a lil' today. So its a good sign. And I'm still working on it.

Plus, Miss Gucci is here to perk my day a lil' bit more...

THIS, is not mine. Its Kelly's grab. Original price $280

Mine. Original price $330.

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What's with me and IT or Geeks?!!!

Speaking of coincidence.

I happened to read an article on "how geeks will make a better boyfriend" and all when I did my hair last Saturday. Sounded convincing and yada yada. Did some wondering and laughed at it eventually. Geeks??? For me? Nahhhhhhh.

Couple of days later I did this quiz on facebook:

"A geek from the word go"..."You excel at anything itechy...."

"My arse", I thought. That's the last thing I am or good at.

*****

Along came this "What type of persons do you attract?"

Never in my 24 years of life I'd imagine this to appear in any of the stupidest, lame quiz I've taken:




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Geeks again.

I'm so not going to do quizes from facebook anymore.

Great. So I happened to be in my friendster, checking out my horoscope. It says I'm good at experiencing technological stuffs. Inventing mechanism will be a success and I will do a great job blah blah blah.

I'd rather buff and paint my nails.

Hmm..Maybe I'll build machines that gives you the most beautiful manicure of your choice, with perfumed (choice of Issey Miyaki, CK, Anna Sui, Gucci, Chanel, Hugo) acrylic nails and Swarovski diamante decos in just 5 mins. Not forgetting a good hand spa prior to that. Yup, all in 5 mins.

I'd better stop day-dreaming.

I'll die young and early

I realised...

My mood's climbling and falling faster than the speed of light.

Flactuating faster than the price of oil.

Laughing at this moment, yet crying at another.

I realised...

I can't fall asleep, even when I took my prescribed.

I wake up early, even when I sleep late.

I smile and laugh infront of many, yet I turned emotionless when all are gone.

I realised...

I love myself yet I hate myself.

I'm me in the day, and someone else when I'm left alone.

I'm talking, yet I'm not.

I felt fortunate yet miserable.

I realised...

Rock songs are back into my life.

Spacing out with aid of trance contented my many nights.

I realised...

The other side of Jinxed has returned.

The splited me. Yes, she's back.

The one that placed cuts on my body,

The one that made my stares turned cold,

The one that froze my heart which was full of love,

The one that turned my world from rainbow to grey,

The one full of hatred and vengeance.

http://edis.ifas.ufl.edu/FY100

Here is a list of the signs or symptoms of major depression:

- Sadness, depressed mood, crying over seemingly minor setbacks

- Increased irritability, crankiness, difficulty being satisfied

- More easily frustrated, gives up quickly after initial failures

- Poor self-concept, low self-esteem, reluctance toward attempting endeavors

- Loss of interest in previously pleasurable activities

- Changes in appetite (decreased appetite most common) often signaled by rapid weight gain or loss.

- Changes in sleep patterns (not enough or too much sleep)

- Slowed, inhibited actions (slow, soft speech; slowed body movements).

- Fatigue, loss of pep and energy

- Poor concentration, attention and/or memory.

- Thoughts or words about death or suicide

Most people will experience some of these symptoms from time to time, but in order for it to be considered major depression; you should be experiencing at least 5 of these symptoms, continuously, for at least 2 weeks.

"Stressful life events can trigger depression in someone who may already be vulnerable to getting depressed"

*Huge yawns like lion*

(Drinks 2nd cuppa coffee and it still ain't working. Is the coffee spoilt? How come its not waking me up the least bit?)

I'm sleepy, as usual. Nothing beats a good, quality sleep. Which I haven't had one for a long time. Seldom get to have quality sleeps too. Even on weekends. Slept late, yet wake up early. Worst, Jinxed is a very light sleeper.

So, I have ALLLLL the rights to be tired. :Þ

Phone's ringing mad like some Macdonald's hotline.

"Good morning sir, this is Jinxed speaking. How may I help you with the tortures? Sawing off your fucking brain? Sewing up your lips? Or chopping off you friggin' limbs? Since you are ringing my line insane."

Someone's complaining I haven't been blogging, even thou' its for 2 days only...Diaoz. Well, can't blame the booby woman cuz this proves she's a frequent reader of mine. HAHAHA.

Triple S (Steam, Sauna & Swimming) was cancelled, so it was a stay-home saturday for me. Not entirely stay home thou', just that I did not meet any of my pals. Had my hair done (for CNY, I know, its excuses for me to spend $$), after which bro fetch me for dinner along with mum and his girlfriend at eunos.

And guess what, we had steamboat! Tell me I'm so not supposed to get so much food into my stomach for my diet program. Hecked it anyway, went home and I weighed the same.

The gang said they would cheer me up (since I'm kinda depressed these period) and kept their promises true enough. LMAO yesterday.

Joke of the day:

Nai pa is a mosquitoe-bit swollen prince charming.

(OMG, that was a good one)

After effect was some frozen-like cheeks and many many laugh wrinkles. This was how I looked before setting off to meet them:

Short eh? My hair is still ghastly long despite looking short. Interchangeble I should say. So I own both long and short hair now. Sadly, I didn't have a proper pic of my long hair after cutting this hairdo. Shall go home and cam-whore plenty.

Totally loving this. Covered the remaining gold color at the ends and had it all black instead. Short hair isn't as bad as I thought it would be. This length is ideal enough to not expose my dumpling round face. *Nods with much appraisal*

My short hair was followed by Chewzi's, whom many deemed his hair is way too long. I became his hair consultant for choosing the style and communicating with the hair stylist. Eventually, I was the one learning from the stylist how to style the designed hair of Chewzi. Chewzi: Next time I charge you for that. LV and Gucci products are acceptable.

And why was I the one do so?

(1) Chewzi will DEFINITELY NOT understand what the hair stylist taught him, like how I don't understand their alien IT terms.

(2) Chewzi's official, #1 girlfriend was away, on the phone.

So? I do the job lorrrrrr.

PweePwee: Next time I'll charge you also. For putting your bf under my care. LOL. Shall offset this time since you brought him down to fix my pc.

DFS's having sales. 30% - 70%. Not for all brands thou. But labels like Gucci, Coach and Fendi are in it. Think Dior had its share too. Nothing i fancied. *Sobs*

AVP 2 was nice. A lil' more gore than the first one, which I totally enjoyed. (Jinxed lurves gruesome movies FYI...) But we missed a lil' of the front part I guessed. Sounds crucial from what J had analysed.

Were late cuz' the girls (*ahem* that includes me) were busying shopping and estatically trying to join the retail's member by grabbing some other stuffs. Kelly was the victim eventually. MuaHAHAHA. While the guys stayed out tapping their foot impatiently I guess.

If any of you seen 6 lunatics running in the mil' of orchard, towards Cineleisure, around 3.30pm yesterday, then its us. Rest assured we are not escapes from mental hospital.

Anyway, be prepared for AVP 3. My predict it should release somewhat end of this year.

Again...

Bah! And bye bye my love!

I'm hungry. And sleepy.

I wanna go home. And have dinner with my folks. I wanna eat fried hokkien mee later.

2 more minutes to pack up and leave. Can't wait for weekend to come.

Time's up. Byeeeeee~. Have a happy weekend babes.

P.S. Stomach's playing rock & roll. *hungry*

Love,
Jinxed

Just some random thingy..

I'm like SO SO SO in the mood to blog today.

Firstly, I'm tired. And tired Jinxed is pretty much equivalent to grouchy Jinxed. Which ultimately explained this entry.

So I'm gonna skip class today.

(Not as if I'm going to sleep my way thru' till tomorrow morning. I need to go home and pack my shopped. Considering I'll not be spending my weekend at home. So, all the washing and packing HAD TO BE DONE TODAY. Think the shopping bags are somehow rooted to my flooring. Ha.)

Boring and goofed up semester. Schedule was wrong and wrong, lessons were nothing but boring. Aside from the accounting classes from Mr Amiable See, the MIS ones are torturing enough to kill me again and again for like 5,873 times.

MSN nick for today:
Lady EviLyn's head is spinning like merry-go-round

Indeed. I'm literally floating from place to place. Like there is no gravatitional pull holding on to me. I feel like an Louis Armstrong. Only difference is I'll stick Singapore's flag instead of whatever that's sticked up there.

Hahas.

Grabbed a phone at a very good deal. Details will be elaborated like, after you count to a trillion.

Which made me feel I'm soooooooo tech-savvy

NOT.

Numbskulled me went ahead still inspite many of the IT genius' first words were: "Are you sure?" "Serious?"

Heck. I seriously need a gadget to store the excessive memory from my over-flowing, EOL brain. Memory's really failing on me. At this rate I'm going, hell knows I might end up having short-term amnesia? Or am I already? Hmmm..

Where am I? What's my name? And whooooo are you ah?

Alrightey, the phone. My new friend which I'm trying very, very hard to befriend with. Sexy white color with glossy finishing. Classy.

HTC Touch Mobile

Sexy, eh?

$298 w any contract. I checked mine and it was expired. Lucky me. Then I realised I can trade in my SE K800i which reduced the cost by another $200. Happens so I had my charger with me. There! Off I go to OUB Centre after work.

All and all, $98 for this lady. Happy me. But was totally pissed off with the sales executive named JAMES GAN.

(Think I better go set a reminder in my phone to complain him. Simply can't take the rage off.)

Email address of Starhub customer service's higher management, anyone?

Realised I've yet made any new year resolutions.

My dentist asked me what was mine when I went to tightened my braces last evening and my replied was: "I'm too contented with what I have to make any."

Well, 2007 was good for me. Indeed.

Not so for 2008 thou'...

SO, here are my resolutions....

Super wordy post today, wonder who will actually read all this typings of mine. Well, heck. Then again, the report from my statcounter reflects I've actually got a reader from US. *Heads up, proud* Or maybe it was accidental? LOL. Duncarrrelah.

Hmm..before I proceed to type all those dunno-will-fulfill-or-not resolutions, please bear with me cuz' Jinxed'd like to say some nice nice things first.

I thank daddy:

- For always being there for me, for giving in to me when I rant at him, when I showed him attitude after my long day at work.
- For taking the initiative to talk to me first when we quarrelled, knowing I won't give in.

- For calling me and check if I had my dinner, else he'd buy back the most sumptuous meal for me.

- For giving me unconditional love no matter what happened.

- For remembering the jokes he heard and tells me when I'm back, which was a tough thing for him cuz' his memory's failing due to old age.

- For being my lifetime mentor, my boyfriend, my girlfriend, my best friend, my guardian.

I thank mummy:

- For taking good care of me and loved me even though she knows I didn't had the "maternity" feeling for her.

- For spending her money on me even when I already had the capabalities to support myself.

- For cooking the best-est meal in the world, and of course not forgetting my random bird's nest and hashima.

I thank my friends:

- For a simple "why" when they sensed my listness.

- For remembering me when they saw something.

- For leaving me alone when I needed it, yet showing their presence somehow.

- For their efforts just to put a smile across my face.

- For listening to me and tolerating my nonsenses most of the times.

- For their endurance to my random offensive comments and vulgarities.

- For telling me they missed me when they hadn't seen me for a while.

I thank those acquaintances:

- For adding more colors to my colorful world.

- For all friends started off with acquaintances.

- For not being intimidated by my so-called unapproachable (which was TOTALLY wrong, hello~)

And many more lah, getting too cheesy if I were to elaborate more. But, I do wanna sincerely thank all these peoples. Jinxed is especially generous when it comes nice words. Hahaha.

>>Resolutions for 2008<<

To lose more weight. Trying to max up my weight loss till underweight. Never in my whole rat life I've been underweight. 5 more kilos to that. Interesting experience it will be for me.

Improve on my vocab. Reading others' blog only makes me think my english sucks BIG time.

Work smart, earn more.

Play more when I earned more.

Pluck up my freaking courage to enrol myself for driving lessons. Sorry! Traffic police. Guess your workload's gonna increase thanks to the direction idiot Jinxed~

Spend lesser on myself.... (guilty)

Spend more on daddy and mummy (guilty x 2)

Remain active as I was in 2007, most importantly.

I'm upset, I'm seriously upset. What happened at work last week doesn't seemed to end as yet.

Instead, it was doubly shitty today. Dare not even think of what's going to come next, what's in for tomorrow. Nothing good is gonna' come out from them. Surely.

As if its not bad enough.

I'm required to talk. I'm required to communicate. I'm required to co-ordinate. But I just don't feel like interacting with anyone at all. Not today. I wish for an end to such feeling tomorrow.

HOPEFULLY.

I wanna sleep my way through all these.

Those fake smiles and laughter of mine today are unbearable. I had to put on false front just to be "professional". Well, I know my colleagues are equally innocent. But I just am so uncapable to not portray my sulleness infront of them. I seriously am feeling f**ked up. So, f**k me back if you are upset with me and my behaviour or attitute, I'll take it with benevolence.

The air seems still and heavy. Or is it me that can't seems to breathe?

Jinxed wants the best for everyone, everyone she loves. Jinxed loves laughters from others, from all she endears.

She really PRAYED hard for those whom went through miseries (P.S. I'm a buddhist) and wished for their happiness to be built on her sorrows.

I had it coming. From the 1st day of the year, from my very first quarrel, I predicted it like a prophet all-so-divine.

Yeah. I had it coming.

Does anyone remember Jinxed gets vunerable too?

That I share the same emotions as you do?

Or it seems I'm as strong as I seemed?

I wonder. I ponder. I reckon.

P.P.S: I love my room.

• Messy yet I know where to get the things I want.
• Huge 4 door built-in wardrobe which I still find it insufficient.
• 5 mirrors: 2 full lengthed, 1 half lengthed, 1 table, 1 handheld. To remind me how awful I looked.
• Spacious and all, with my solid 70 pocketted-spring queen sized bed.

Falling rain over here, that looked like thousands and thousands droplets of tears. Diminishing my many sweet summers.

Which reminds me I have not weeped at all, in my new bedroom.

Maybe I should. I might. I will. Heart's stained with tears anyway. What more, on my precious bed.

Will someone bring me to my room where I can gladly remove this mask?

For I want no shoulders to cry on, no one to rely on...

Jinxed overspent again...

*Looks at the blinking icon at task bar* The gang are discussing when to watch AVP2, and something else. Not forgetting to suan me how I told J I was in a bad mood cuz' work was shitty and my PC went dead on me that faithful day.

So, AVP2 was cancelled thanks to me. Instead they came to my place to fix my computer which I was immaculately grateful. And MESSED UP my desktop as well... Thanks leh. *evil beams*

There they go yakking about the schedule, and me? Happily blogging, occasionally responding a little. Hiaks.

About the overspending....

These cost me close to 200 bucks $300 odd.

2 pairs of heels, 1 dress, 1 tube, 3 shorts from FOX, 1 skinny jeans, 2 nail poilsh (comes with a pkt of nail sticker, a nail remover, tube of cotton pad) from The Face Shop, 1 pair of false lashie, 1 Clarins moisturiser (which still cost $83 after discount! Darn...)

Wheeeeee~ another addition to my Americaya killers. Lurrrve it.





This was to replace one of my black working heels, so they are guilt-free~~~

Just when I happily had my new pair of white killer heels in addition to the rest...

I got myself another red one to complete the collection!!!!!!!!!!

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Cousin took this during our wedding lunch earlier this afternoon at Pan Pacific.

Boo! Scare you, didn't i? LOL.

Tarah~!

Happy 2008! (part 3)

Jinxed is on MC today. Seemed to sniff insomnia relapsing. Prolly due to the hectic schedule I had arranged for myself. So I had to take some prescribes of sleeping pills. Dawhh. Headache's killing me and I'm having no intention of stop smoking. *Lights ciggie*

Great, think I'm burning abit. *Grabs pullover* See what insomnia does to a person?

Random tiu-ing.

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Okie, something light to start off for today's post. Dinner for the day was at Absolute Heaven located along Princep Street. Was doing some last minute searching and managed to reserve seats from this place. Feedback shown on the internet was pretty good so we decided to go ahead.

But it wasn't as good as I've thought it would be.

Price wise, was okay. But the ambiance be it indoor of al fresco, was not up to my standard. Not till the extend of horrendous, but not as fantastic as what the feedback claimed to be. And the food...*ahem* I shall leave that out. Overall, its still a good chill out place with okay food. Service was consistent plus the crews were friendly and helpful. Definitely scored my liking with this.

Cam-whoring is a must. This bunch of peeps definitely has got nothing to do with cam-shy since close to 400 pictures were taken on that day itself.

The top that the 6 of us wore were interestingly under the same color scheme. Again, it was unintentional. Cute, ain't it?

J's premium tenderloin and Boon's Tenderloin, both medium done. *Ugh* Tough kinda doness for me. Jinxed likes it medium rare (erm, slightly more done den medium rare, but lil' bit more rare than medium done. Get what I mean? No? Nvm.)

Duck's seafood pasta in green. Looks scary but tasted not too bad.

Mixed mushroom soup. Served in puree form. We all agreed it tasted like soup kambing instead. Suggest you not to order if you are to visit Absolute Heaven.

Muai medium rare sirloin which was "obese" cuz' there was waaay too much fats.

Jeanie's Aglio olio that both looked and tasted like wanton mee. Both not worth ordering.

NaiMa's codfish in oriental style. Erm, I'm not a fish person. Leave it to you people to check it out.

Tiramisu. Okie, that was a THUMBS UP. Even aayyye liked it.

See how contented she was? Yeah, the tiramisu was good. No doubts about that.

We had crepes served too, but me can't seem to load the pic up. So, forget it... Not wonderful anyway. Only the flames made some commotion among the sua-ku us.

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Digital camera in modern generation are built with sophisticated features like macro, xxx times zoom, anti shake and many more an IT idiot like me won't know. Mine had the feature of auto face detection. Where small frames are positioned on the faces of the party while the photographer takes the pic.

However...

It refuses to detect this face. There were only 2 rectangle frames locked on the other 2 guys (the original pic is shown on the top part on my post) and duck, no face detection.

LOL.

LOLL.

LOLLL.

Then, comes the Joke of the Day. Damn why do I have to miss the funny part. Why must it happen when I happened to be in the washroom? Damn Damn DAMN.

Story goes like this:

*Tiramisu served*

*Jeanie takes the tiramisu and had a few cute poses*

*Boon snaps the pictures*

Boon: 要不要拍脸?

Jeanie: =_="

The rest: LOLL.

Boon:






LOLLLLLLL.

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Alright, am gonna' sign off here. Going to have my rest. Have got lessons later. Diaoz.