I'll die young and early

I realised...

My mood's climbling and falling faster than the speed of light.

Flactuating faster than the price of oil.

Laughing at this moment, yet crying at another.

I realised...

I can't fall asleep, even when I took my prescribed.

I wake up early, even when I sleep late.

I smile and laugh infront of many, yet I turned emotionless when all are gone.

I realised...

I love myself yet I hate myself.

I'm me in the day, and someone else when I'm left alone.

I'm talking, yet I'm not.

I felt fortunate yet miserable.

I realised...

Rock songs are back into my life.

Spacing out with aid of trance contented my many nights.

I realised...

The other side of Jinxed has returned.

The splited me. Yes, she's back.

The one that placed cuts on my body,

The one that made my stares turned cold,

The one that froze my heart which was full of love,

The one that turned my world from rainbow to grey,

The one full of hatred and vengeance.

http://edis.ifas.ufl.edu/FY100

Here is a list of the signs or symptoms of major depression:

- Sadness, depressed mood, crying over seemingly minor setbacks

- Increased irritability, crankiness, difficulty being satisfied

- More easily frustrated, gives up quickly after initial failures

- Poor self-concept, low self-esteem, reluctance toward attempting endeavors

- Loss of interest in previously pleasurable activities

- Changes in appetite (decreased appetite most common) often signaled by rapid weight gain or loss.

- Changes in sleep patterns (not enough or too much sleep)

- Slowed, inhibited actions (slow, soft speech; slowed body movements).

- Fatigue, loss of pep and energy

- Poor concentration, attention and/or memory.

- Thoughts or words about death or suicide

Most people will experience some of these symptoms from time to time, but in order for it to be considered major depression; you should be experiencing at least 5 of these symptoms, continuously, for at least 2 weeks.

"Stressful life events can trigger depression in someone who may already be vulnerable to getting depressed"